This is my best friend Nicole. She was the best person I knew. She was so loving and caring towards others and it was completely genuine. She was always laughing and looking at the good in every bad situation. Every time I needed her she was there. Every time I was feeling down I could always count on her to come over, eat tons of junk food, watch movies and have a “girls night” and just complain about life to each other. And I swear after those nights we both felt better. A day didn’t pass where we didn’t talk to each other. We grew up into adults together. We didn’t even refer to each other as best friends but more like sisters.
On December 12th 2013 everything changed for the worse. At around 12:30 am Nicole got into a car with a driver who had a few drinks. It didn’t help that a few days prior there was a snow storm. Combine a drunk driver and black ice on the roads… the outcome was devastating. There were a total of four people in the car that night. Including Nicole, three out of the four died. The only survivor was the driver.
This situation left me heart broken. I’ve never lost anyone before and all of a sudden I’ve lost the closest person to me.
This accident really opened my eyes. I use to feel invincible. You never think things like this can actually happen to you because you’re only use to seeing things like this happen in movies or tv shows.
Next week will mark three months since the accident. It took a while for this to really set in and feel real for me. Just recently it hit me. The one person I would talk to throughout the day.. I will never talk to ever again. The one person I trusted with everything.. I will never be able to confide in again. I will never receive another FaceTime call or text message from her. I will never hear her laugh again. I will never get to listen to her rap old tupac and biggie songs again. We will never get to take anymore shopping trips in New York city together. I’ll never get to see her go to college, or eventually get married and really start a life.
Not a moment goes by where I am not thinking of my best friend. I put up this HUGE front, in front of everyone in my life but inside I feel so alone and broken.
Nicole was only twenty years old, she never got to really start a life and really live. She didn’t deserve any of this.
I miss her and love her so much.